For those of you who have walked this path ahead of me, thank you for sharing the ways you remember your babies who are in Heaven. Please feel free to give me more ideas. What do you do to honor them on birthdays and holidays?
I am still in the state of mind where it is strange to want just the right monument or the brightest flowers for Reese's vase. I just want to be a regular mom doing regular mom things.
This week I have been struggling with seeing other people with little baby girls. I think, "Other people have their daughters. I want to have my daughter, too." Thankfully, GOD's presence is never far because of all of the prayers lifted up on our behalf. I am confident of this.
Whenever those times come, GOD is quick to speak to my heart that Reese just wasn't meant to live on this earth with us longer than two days. Just this one thought fills me with peace that helps me go on. Peace in knowing GOD's will is being done, and that we WILL see Reese again! Just to imagine that moment is overwhelming in an incredible way. In my mind I see Reese taking me to Jesus. How I long for this day.
For some reason GOD chose Jason and me to go through this. It hurts. It stinks. I didn't choose this. I don't like it. I don't understand. But I love my Jesus.
I trust GOD's heart that He will finish
what He started and fill our lives with hope and joy and blessing!
Oh, how I love Jesus.
Two friends shared this verse with me...it's perfect.
I will lead the blind by ways they have not known,
along unfamiliar paths I will guide them;
I will turn the darkness into light before them and make the rough places smooth.
These are the things I will do; I will not forsake them.