Today Reese would have been one month old. We have gone through many "firsts" this month without Reese, and I've heard it gets easier. I hope so. We have made it through...
My follow-up appointment at the hospital where Reese was born and where we let her go.
The first time I walked into Reese's nursery.
The first time I opened Reese's closet.
Reese's scheduled C section date.
Reese's due date.
The first Sunday back at church.
The first time someone (who didn't know) asked me how everything was going with Reese.
Jason's first day back to work.
My first day alone with Zach.
My first fall Bible study.
My first fall MOPS group.
The first time I was asked, "How many kids do you have?"
The first day I didn't cry (after 25 days straight). I wasn't even trying not to...it just happened. ; )
Thank you for helping pray me through many of these firsts. Some have been much easier than I expected. Some much more difficult. It's been a month, hasn't it?
People have been so kind. We can see it in their eyes. Not pity, just sympathy and love. I have never received so many hugs in my life. I'm a cuddler at heart so hugs mean a lot to me.
I know there are many more firsts to get through. I know with GOD we will get through them. Never would I have thought the first month after Reese was born I would be doing all of these things. GOD's grace is sufficient for each moment I have to live without Reese. Each "first."
The past few days I have caught myself singing in my car and around the house, and I'm also laughing out loud. More "firsts." Nice ones.