Thursday, October 29, 2009
Tuesday, October 27, 2009
Monday, October 26, 2009
He will not fall,
for the LORD upholds him with His hand.
Friday, October 23, 2009
Wednesday, October 21, 2009
Right now I seem to be still and feel as if this is just how I need to be. My emotions, my thoughts are so full it's difficult to express (thank you, Lord, You know). But I feel my spirit is still. I am numb to most feelings because the pain crowds out everything else. My heart is bleeding.
I switch from being mad that we do not have our Reese to waiting expectantly and full of hope for GOD's redemption. I am not angry at GOD because He has filled our lives to the brim with blessings. Jason and I have each other. Zach. Family. Friends. Strangers who are reaching out. A loving and holy GOD. He is not abandoning us.
I don't know how it feels to be lighthearted anymore. Jason and I will carry this burden forever. I praise my GOD who is carrying it with us and so are our family and friends. From now on our happiness and joy will be tainted with the loss of Reese (yet Heaven's gain!). It is a difficult reality to face.
A woman at the gym today asked me if I had had my baby. I told her yes but she did not make it. I dread these conversations and feel sorry for the people who ask me! Who expects an answer like the one I give them? Bless their hearts.
Life is going on. Has been going on. Others are hurting, too. Jason and I go through all the motions of life, but I am longing for Heaven. For Jesus. For my precious Reese.
Monday, October 19, 2009
Of course, Zach had to try on his duck costume for Halloween for a practice run. Isn't he the cutest ducky you have ever seen!? Love it.
A woman recently emailed me with something GOD placed on her heart. She had been reading about this precious family. She felt GOD gave her the image of this sweet new mom rocking Reese in Heaven. What a gift GOD gave her to pass on to me. I am so thankful she was sensitive enough to His voice to respond. Isn't He good like this even in the midst of heartbreak and tragedy?
Sara didn't have a lot of time with her baby girl, and I didn't get enough time to hold Reese. This vivid picture blesses me so. I will never forget it. Even though I would give anything to be the mom rocking Reese, I'm happy this mom can hold her. What a beautiful picture in my mind!
The LORD turned to him and said, "Go in the strength you have...Am I not sending you?"
Saturday, October 17, 2009
I will praise your name forever and ever.