Sunday, August 16, 2009

Bright Spots

I wanted to share a few bright spots and sweet pictures during these days. ; )

Can this face be any sweeter!?

Reese weighed 6 lbs. 6 oz., 18 3/4 in., and was born at 5:36 pm on Tuesday. We just found out how long she was so I now feel complete about knowing all her measurements. I love baby details like this.

Reese was also a candidate for a heart valve donation, so after she went to be with Jesus this recovery was done successfully. We have been in touch with the surgeon, and now we wait expectantly to hear if a match was found. We realize this could take months (the heart valves can be stored for a long period of time), but knowing that a part of Reese could live on in another baby is unbelievable. There are just no words to describe how Jason and I feel about this. Our baby girl helping some other baby live when she could not.

Our siblings have been amazing.

My brother Faber drove through the night to be with us when he heard about Reese. He never left my side. His calming presence was so comforting to us. Meredith is coming today, and I can't wait to hug her neck. I know it's been hard for her not to be here.

Cody and Shannon have also been so encouraging. Shannon was one of the first people I saw when the nurses wheeled me out of recovery. She just held my hand as they took me to my room.

Mandy and Bo came up as soon as they could and took care of Zach for us. "Abba" and "Zachy" had a wonderful time together. I am so thankful Mandy was watching my other "baby" while I needed to be with Reese. I had no worries about him. That was such a comfort!

My handsome little man

Andy is a such a great uncle to Zach, and I know Reese melted his heart.

Jason and I love our siblings so incredibly much! Thank you for being here for us every step of the way.

Physically I am doing well. I dreaded having another C-section since the day Zach was born, so my ob and I had decided that I would be under general anesthesia with Reese to hopefully make it somewhat easier on me.

Needless to say, an emergency C-section with local anesthesia was a terrifying thought to me, but of course on Tuesday I just wanted Reese to be born and safe. ; ) Thankfully what most people say about a second C-section is true. It was much easier. I also realize my mind has been only on Reese, but as long as I take my pain meds and take it slow, I am getting around easier every day.

Thank you again and again for helping carry us through this time.


Before Reese was born, I prayed for a peace to settle over us as we brought her home and to have a smooth transition adjusting to life with a new baby.
This is far from what I saw happening or nothing I would have planned. I'm sure we will have nothing resembling a smooth transition without having Reese physically in our lives everyday.
Yet a peace has settled on our home. A peace that passes all understanding (Philippians 4:7). Thank you, Jesus.

83 comments:

WMAO - Working My Ass Off said...

God Bless you and your family! Well you know what? He has!

Amanda said...

praying for you and your family - you are so brave and positive strong...your precious girl is just that...precious! i am so sorry that you are feeling so much pain and i will continue to lift you up daily as best i can in thought and prayer. when you are able maybe you could share what happened, what in the world happened to that sweet baby...again, i am so sorry for your family's loss and am thankful you have zach as i know only another child can the light the way and get you through your darkest hours and days! blessings. a blog friend named amanda.

Anonymous said...

Praying for you and your family. Very sorry for the loss of your precious daughter.

Anonymous said...

I found your blog through Kelly's Korner. You are a beautiful mom inside and out. I pray that you will continue to feel peace in your home and your heart. You have a gorgeous family.

Aura said...

How amazing to know that she could save another baby's life.

Taylor said...

I'm so glad you have such wonderful family to be close to you during this time. I know that has helped tremendously and you are a true inspiration Katie!!

God bless you and your sweet family!

Joyce said...

God has definitely blessed you with a wonderful family. I'm very glad that they could all be with you during this most difficult time. She was a beautiful baby!

I am hopeful, as you are, that another baby will be able to benefit from your loss. God does have a purpose in everything!

You will continue to be in my prayers!

rm said...

Thank you for the precious pictures Katie and for filling in the details. I am so glad everyone got to meet Reese and spend time with her. What a miracle that even in her loss, she will bring life to another. I hope we get to hear that story one day. That Zach, he is such a cutie. I will continue to pray that Jesus will surround you, Jason and Zach with His peace.

Much Love,
Rebekah

Em said...

I heard about your stroy at Kelly's Korner and I wanted to take a moment to tell you that you are in my prayers. I know that God will guide you and comfort you through this difficult time.

Jill said...

God is using you through this tragedy...just amazing.

Continuing to lift you up.

Julee said...

Still praying for you, Jason and your families! Will be there Monday praying that you have peace from week you have been through!

Amy said...

Prayers are flowing...

Melissa Conaway said...

Katie - I am been praying for you guys since I found out they took you for an emergency c-section. And I continue to pray for every need that I know God knows intimately! This morning I asked our sunday school class to lift you guys in prayer and to do so in the days to follow. I am truly broken for you but also rejoice that your beautiful baby girl is with Jesus. It is touching to know that even in the midst of this tragedy that you are trusting God and proclaiming His will for your lives and that you guys have chosen to help another child in need through Reese! May God lift you up and hold you closely...I will continue to bathe you in prayer!
In Christ,
Melissa Conaway

Momofgirls said...

Thank you for sharing these intimate moments with us.
You and your family are precious ( I already knew that about you and Shannon through blogs though!)
May God carry you through these next days and heal you both physically and mentally. We have a big God who can carry out tremendous burdens.

We love you and are praying for your sweet families...

blessedmomof4 said...

Wow... You are an amazing example of true faith and strength that comes from Jesus!! I am so sorry for your loss. Your family will be in my prayers. Reese was an absolutely beautiful baby, thank you for sharing her with all of us. I am expecting a little girl on the 25th of August and can not even imagine what you guys are experiancing. But God is good and I know he will wrap his loving arms around you all and give you comfort and peace. Once again you have a beatiful faith that gives so many others encouragment and strength. You make other Christians like myself proud!!!

Gail said...

I wanted you to know that this morning in my Sunday school class of single women - some single moms with little support - prayed specifically for you and your family in your loss. I did not know that I could cry with someone that I do not know, but there are shared tears for you Katie from one mom to another. You are an amazing young woman of faith and your testimony was encouraging this morning to other women who struggle in their own faith walk with Jesus. Hugs from Illinois.

His Doorkeeper said...

Only through the person of Jesus could you show the courage and strength that you are showing the world at this very difficult time in your life.

I know there will be difficult days ahead but know that He is with you every step. Thinking and praying for you tomorrow that it will be an up-lifting service to remember Reece and to glorify God!

The Calhoun Clique said...

I heard your story on Kellys Korner and just wanted to tell you I have been praying for your family and will continue to do so.

Deidre said...

I thought of you so many times yesterday. It's amazing how God uses the simple things (blogging) to encourage one another whom have never even met. I am praying for you each time the Father brings you to my attention. Praying for that peace as He carries you through this time.

Ashley said...

Oh sweet Katie, as I sat in church this morning I struggled just to make it through the songs thinking of you and your precious family. I am so thankful that you have been so open and willing to share Reese with not only your family but with those of you don't know but who have you on our hearts and minds, constantly. I love your sister DEARLY and I'm so glad that you and Jason have such amazing families to support you- in good times AND the hard ones. Oh,I can only imagine the emotions you have but to continusouly praise Him in this storm is so remarkable. I love my Savior and the hope and comfort He gives...but I certainly do not (and can not) understand His ways. We will continue to pray as you walk this road and my heart will be with you tomorrow.
With Love,
Ashley

MyFairLadies said...

Katie,

I cried all the way through church this morning, thinking of you and Jason and your families. You are making amazing choices in these difficult days! I will continue to pray that God gives you the strength to choose to trust Him with each step you take in the coming days as well.

Love wendy for the Donleys

Fabiola said...

Dear Katie, Just stopping by to check on you.

I lighted a candle in Reese's honor at my church today.

Fabiola

april said...

As I sit here, tears streaming down my face - for people whom I've never met in real life, my heart aches for the loss you all have endured. Thank you so much for sharing your precious baby girl with those of us in the 'blog world'. Beautiful. Just Beautiful. Your strength, grace & attitude in this horrendous situation is so admirable. Your Faith in God is ever present by your writings. Praying for your family, God Bless you all.

walkers said...

these pictures of Reese are so beautiful and I know will be treasures forever. Hil told me the story about Reese's heart valve yesterday and I just bawled retelling it to James- what a gift her sweet life will always be to the world. That little boy of yours just melts my heart and I pray that he will be a source of joy and comfort in the days to come. love you love you love you friend!

The B's said...

I cry each time I come to your blog. Thank you for sharing your heart, your journey and your pain. We are praying for you all.

Jenna said...

Such a precious family ya'll have. I know they are going to be the source of so much comfort in the coming days, week, months. The Lord knew what He was doing surrounding ya'll with such amazing people to help carry this load.

I am praying for all of you and continue to praise the Lord for the faith ya'll have in Jesus. I know that babygirl is proud of her parents for the way they are finding their strength in Him alone! Praying and praying....Love, Jenna

Charity said...

I came across your blog some time ago. I am praying for you and your family. I can't imagine what you are going through. I pray that God will continue to give you that peace daily. She is absolutely gorgeous!

I know this is random, but one of the other blogs that I have followed for some time is a sweet girl who lost her son at birth also. She had posted some good books that she had read that helped her through. Also reading her blog may be comforting to you since she knows exactly what you are going through. Here is her site:
http://sgirl79.blogspot.com/

Praying for your family...

Psalm 34:18...The LORD is close to the brokenhearted
and saves those who are crushed in spirit.

3LittleByrds said...

Praying for you everyday. I'm so glad your family has been there and so strong to help you and Jason. The pictures are priceless and I know you'll treasure them forever.

Laura said...

One breath at a time....He is nearer to you in these moments than you could ever imagine.

I think of you so often.
Sending love

julie & joe said...

Katie - I found you through Shannon's blog and my heart goes out to all of you. You are so strong and brave. I pray that God gives you strength in the coming days.

Angie said...

Katie,
You are such a strong person. Your faith in God is so inspiring. I can't even begin to imagine what you and your family are going through right now. I am praying for you all.
Take care,
Angie

Unknown said...
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Unknown said...

Dear Katie,
Your willingness to post during these days has brought such sweet, strong blessing to those of us who watch, wait, and pray with you. I see Jesus in you and Jason and in your amazing parents and siblings. I wish I could be there with you to hug and cry and hope for the joy that comes in the morning as He promised.

I love you,
Miss B.

C said...

Reese is absolutely beautiful. You have been on my mind so much these past several days, even though I don't even know you personally. Praying for you all...

Andy said...

Peace and God's comfort to you and your entire family at this unbearably difficult time.

Becky said...

My thoughts and prayers are with you as you continue your walk, trusting His heart - the only One worth trusting.

Praying for your physical strength in the next several days.

Thank you for sharing some of Reese's story with us and for your generosity in allowing a portion of her to live on. I work with the spouse of a heart transplant patient and that gift is never taken for granted.

Beth said...

Oh, Katie! I'm just so sorry I can't be there to hug you tomorrow!! I had some spotting last night and this morning, so I've been put to bed till I see my dr. in the morning. I sent a hug with Ashley, but it's just not the same! I'll be praying thru the afternoon for you, Jason, and the rest of the fam. Mandy has been great with the updates, and I wish I could hug her too right now. My prayers are with you. Love you!!

Carry Grace said...

I am praying for you and your family. I am so sorry for your loss.

Andrea @ Mommy Snacks.net said...

I can't imagine the pain and grief you are feeling over losing your precious daughter!!! I am praying for you :)

Leslie said...

Tears were streaming down my face this morning at church and all I could picture was your sweet angel up in heaven with our glorious Father. She will never experience any pain, sadness, grief, hurt from our fallen world. Her tiny body is changing so many lives on this earth and bringing so many closer to Christ. Katie you are amazing and I can only hope to handle myself with half as much grace and strength. I will be praying for you, Jason and your entire family tomorrow. Your sister is an amazing friend to me and I can only imagine the relationship you two share. Family, friends and even strangers will not stop praying for your family tomorrow and in the many days ahead. Praying for you tomorrow. I can only imagine how hard it will be. Reese will be there - healthy, perfect and as beautiful as ever.

Unknown said...

You and your family are in my thoughts and prayers. As someone who has gone through the death of my own infant son, I know the feelings and emotions you are going through. My prayer is that you will continue to lean on the everlasting strong arms of Jesus. Your pictures of Reese are so special. I know they will be a comfort in the days ahead.

Renae said...

Thank You for sharing your life with all. You are so brave and strong. What a miracle is it that Reese is able to be a blessing for another child and their family. My prayers are with you and your family.

Brittany said...

You are truly amazing. I'm in continuous prayer for you and your family.

Jeff and Lauren said...

I just recently started reading your blog and just felt compelled to write today and let you know what an encouragement you are - even as you are walking through such a heartbreaking time. I find it amazing that God has given you the strength to BLOG about this tragic situation but the way that you write about your daughter shows how much you treasured her short life and is an AMAZING testimony to our great God. I am thankful that you are sharing your experience with the world and testifying to how God is holding you up as you walk through the darkness. I don't know your specific needs but I am a sister in Christ who is praying for you and your family. God Bless!

Dustin & Kate said...

I also came to your blog from Kelly's blog, so you don't know me. I just want you to know that you have yet another person praying for you. My heart truly goes out to you and your family.

In giving birth to Reese you brought an eternal soul into the world. Nothing, not even death, can take that away.

Blessings to you,
Kate in Texas

newmanfamily said...

Came across your blog through Kelly's Korner. I just wanted you to know that you and your precious family are being lifted up in prayer.
Lori

Anonymous said...

Reese is the most beautiful little girl.. now she is even more beautiful in heaven.. in the arms of our Savior.

I cry everytime I come to your blog, I wish I had the words to say to comfort you. I am so sorry, I wish I knew why these things happen. But, God has a plan for all of us. Maybe his plan for Reese was to touch all the people she has, I've read all the comments through out the past days, people have gone to the Lord, gone back to the lord, people are praying non-strp and now every Mother in the world who reads your blog appricates her children all the more.

Thank You for choosing to be selfless and giving something from your daughter to save the life of another baby. When my own daughter was born she had a heart defect, terror went through my mind. As a Mother, thank you.

I wish I could be with you tomorrow, but please know what I will be praying for you. Know that we all out here in blog land love baby Reese and your family.

Bente said...

Hello,

I live in England and found your blog through Kelly's Korner.I was so moved to read about your experience with your beautiful daughter. You show such strength and grace and I know that you and your family will always feel comforted that Reese continues to live through another child. I wish you continued peace and strength.

Bente.

Bente said...

Hello,

I live in England and found your blog through Kelly's Korner.I was so moved to read about your experience with your beautiful daughter. You show such strength and grace and I know that you and your family will always feel comforted that Reese continues to live through another child. I wish you continued peace and strength.

Bente.

Meg said...

It sounds like you have a wonderful family, you are so blessed. I am so sorry for the loss of your sweet, beautiful girl. Kudos to you for saving another life, that truly is a huge blessing for another family and their baby. You guys are in my prayers.

Madison Sanders said...

I'm so glad that you were surrounded by people that loved you and only had the best of intentions.

You certaintly didn't need any negativity. I know some people who became bitter when certain things happened to me, but it didn't change anything.

As you face the days ahead, know that God will still be there. His love doesn't change, how awesome He is doesn't change, He's still God. Cry when you have to, it's ok. I know that God is going to wrap His loving arms around you and give you the strength to go on.

Michelle said...

I have been reading, what an incredible lady you are. Thank you for sharing your sweet girl with us. Praying for you....

Diana Lesjak said...

Well, BLESS HER LITTLE HEART! Katie, you are so sweet to include pictures of your siblings and offer kind words about them for I know they must be feeling the loss deeply as well. I will be praying for them as well.

Ashley said...

We continue to pray for you and your family. I can only imagine the pain you feel, and will continue to feel, through this grieving process. However, I know that God is good and He is at work through Reese's life.

My husband and I are amazed at your courage and steadfast faith in Christ. You are such a wonderful witness, a noble woman of God and an unbelievable mother whom God has great plans for. Praying His healing hands over you tonight.

Leigh Ann said...

Reese DOES indeed have the sweetest face ever! And, that Zach is such a handsome little man! I am so thankful your family has been able to be with you. From reading your blog, I have always thought you have the sweetest family! I have been praying peace for you, Katie, and I'm so glad you have gotten it. Jesus' peace that passes all understanding is such a blessing! Hugs and know I'm still thinking about you and praying for you! You are such an inspiration in your strength and faith.

Becky said...

My husband and I pray for you every day. He never reads blogs but he asks me for any updates, so I share with him, and we talk about how much we hurt for you and Jason. And we also talk about how your faith is such an amazing testimony!!! Keep holding tight to Jesus because He has defeated death (praise Him!) and one day, He will wipe away every tear from our eyes and we will live forever with our loved ones, sitting at the feet of Him who redeemed us. Thank God for the hope we have and share. Our prayers will be with you especially tomorrow -- we know it will be a difficult day. May God bless you and your family abundantly -- that is our prayer tonight!

The Photo Goo said...

Your photos are wonderful and God blessed you with the courage to share your story. We'll keep you and your family in our thoughts and prayers.

I was wondering if you have a favorite charity for donations in Reece's name?

angela said...

I found your blog a few days ago from Kelly's Korner. I am so sorry for such sadness you all are experiencing right now. My heart goes out to your beautiful family. What a precious little girl. I admire your strength and your faith. My God hold you close in his arms and carry you through this difficult time. I have enjoyed seeing the pictures of your little Reese. Thanks for sharing so many. I think it is wonderful that your baby is going to help another baby. What a generous choice you all made. Take care of yourselves.

S, J, B, & S said...

PRAYING for you. My heart aches for you, Katie, and for your entire family. I am so thankful you feel a peace, as that is exactly what I {along with SO many others} have been praying for you ... peace, comfort, healing, and patience for the day you hold Reese in Heaven. You will remain in my thoughts and prayers. Reese is absolutely beautiful!! Thank you for sharing pictures of her.
Love,
Summer Spain Spooner
{I knew you at Baylor and am a friend of Mandy's}

Heather said...

Katie and Jason, I found your blog through Kelly, and just wanted to say I am praying for you, lifting your family up to our Heavenly Father and asking Him to wrap His arms around you tightly. I am so very sorry for your loss. Reese is beautiful. Praying for you tomorrow and for the Lord to bring comfort and peace that only He can.

Anonymous said...

Although I don't know you (found you from Kelly's Korner), I am beyond words. Just praying for you during this time.


http://magnoliamom.com

Ashley said...

praying for you all...

Cyndi said...

I am So Sorry for your loss. I am praying for you and your whole family. My family went through a situation this past Dec where my brother and sister n law lost a baby at 29 wks gestation. I know personally what you are going through. I pray that God gives you a peace and strength that only He can provide. I will be praying for you in the days to come, because you will need someone to lean on; and God will never leave nor forsake you.

lhoppe said...

Katie,
You are such a wonderful mommy. I know Reese's memorial will honor her & testify of God's grace & love. Just wanted to tell you again that you are in my thoughts & that my family is praying for yours. May the Lord's blessings of peace & comfort be yours tonight.
Luci

Beki said...

Praying for your family...that God's peace would surround you like never before...Blessings!

Kate's Mommy said...

Reese is beautiful! praying for your family. praying for comfort and peace that passes all understanding and that God will touch your lives more now than ever before.

Rachel said...

Thinking of and praying for you all today as you celebrate Reese's life.
Hugs and Prayers
Rachel in PA

Stephanie said...

I am absolutely amazed and touched by your strength. I am crying just reading your blog...I have no idea how you do it.

Reese is absolutely beautiful!!!!! What a sweet precious little girl she is!

I'm praying for your family.....I wish I had more words. I'm just so sorry you are experiencing this unimaginable loss!

Momx6 said...

Having gone in one time and coming home with empty arms like you - I know it is placing our trust in our loving Almighty Father that sustains. I am blessed by seeing your faith and trust in Him demonstrated for all to see. What a testimony. Who knows what God will do in others' lives and you have the peace of knowing you will see Reese again one day! I am praying for you during this sorrow.
"We do not sorrow as those who have no hope." 1 Thess. 4:13 I look forward to seeing our April at that same day!

Kaylee said...

We have been praying for you guys. I am so happy that you have Jesus to get you through this time, I always wonder how people could do it without him. I wanted to tell you that our daughter is one of those babies who has received both a donor valve and artery. She got one when she was 20 months old and will be ten in October. Praise God for people like you and Jason who bless families like us in your time of heartbreak. We will keep prayinf for you.

Love in Jesus,
Sean and Mitzi

sarah @ life {sweet} life said...

Your posts are so encouraging...seeing you cling to His promises at your darkest time. You are touching lives in a mighty way. You & your family are in my thoughts & prayers, and specifically today as you have Reese's memorial.

Sunny said...

I just prayed a prayer for y'all as Reese's service will begin soon. I'm so thankful you have faith to carry you through this.

Isaiah 26:3

I don't know you, but am sending virtual hugs to your family.

Nancy said...

I am praying for you guys & am amazed at your strength..I know it is only from our God above. Praise God you got to hold your little girl & I will be praying for you from now on. I found your blog through Kelly's Korner.

jcollins said...

Katie-
I have been praying for you guys right now...during the service for Reese. I am just broken for you guys in your loss but over-joyed in the way you choose to glorify God and cling to Him. I am in the middle of a Beth Moore study and the last few days have been over what do we do when devastation hits...will we further develop a healthy fear of the Lord or an unhealthy fear of Him. One statement that stuck out to me for you guys is that God can never do Himself right and do His children wrong. God's glory and goodness are inseparable! I LOVE THAT!!!! I am so sorry that you guys will travel this road but I am so grateful that little Reese will be used powerfully for His glory!!!! Love to you!!

Marti Sharkey said...

Dear Katie,
My thoughts and prayers are with you. I am so sad that I was not at the hospital with you taking care of your sweet baby girl. Please know how honored and humbled I am to be allowed to care for Zach. Your light shines bright.
In Christ,
Marti Sharkey, MD

Heather said...

I pray that your peace will continue...and I stand in awe of God, who alone can and will sustain you during this time. I will be praying!

Unknown said...

i am so sorry for your loss!
i came to your blog via a friend. after, reading this post i feel compelled to thank you for choosing to donate her heart valve. my daughter received a donor valve 7 years ago. thank you for helping someone else's child to live!

Anonymous said...

preying for you all

Thrifty Decor Chick said...

I just wanted to say I am so sorry. Came over from Shannon's blog. I am praying for your family.

Unknown said...

Prayers for you. Isn't it a comfort to know that she is with Jesus again? Time and God will be the only balm to heal your wound. What a precious spirit to have even for so little time.

Unknown said...

I found your blog through Kellys Korner.

What a wonderful, giving thing you did by donating Reese's heart valve! How amazing to know that your baby daughter will someday soon help another baby live.

I pray that your home and hearts will continue to be filled with peace.

Praying for you.

Michelle said...

I found your blog through a friend who reads Kelly's Korner and I just want to say that you are an inspiration to me. God bless you and your sweet family. I am so sorry for your loss of your little one, I can't even begin to wrap my mind around how you are dealing with and going through this. Even in your darkest moments remember you are not alone, He is always with you. You have an incredible faith and even though I don't know you, you have inspired me.

Lynn said...

Your beautiful angel is with God and she's going to watch over her family from now on. God bless you and know you are in so many people's thoughts & prayers! You have a beautiful family and a wonderful support system! May He bless them, too!

 
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