Tuesday, January 31, 2012

Pieces

Something very special to me concerning Reese was torn apart. Zach didn't do it to be mean, but he gave it to Colson who ate it and pulled it apart. I was devastated. All I could think was how many toys we have scattered throughout our house that are Zach and Colson's and one thing that was important to me was gone?

Just like her.

I texted a few of my prayers warriors, and one responded, "I don't know what broke, but save the pieces. My sister in law has made some neat things out of special broken things."

Save the pieces.

Those words spoke to me, and I thought about them all day long. I compared the broken pieces to the pieces my heart. 


Pieces of pain, tears, frustrations, anxiety, confusion, hopelessness. Pieces that over two years later even I don't understand. Pieces that don't fit together the way they used to, but maybe just the way GOD intended them to.


Are the pieces even worth saving? He says they are.


Can the LORD put my heart back together? He is.


Can He fill me with joy, faith, hope, and peace where only emptiness and questions remain? He promise is yes.


Reese is gone, and she is with my Heavenly Father. My heart is broken, but He is my Healer. He is faithful, and I choose to trust Him. 


With all my broken pieces.


Why are you downcast, O my soul? Why so disturbed within me? Put your hope in God, for I will yet praise Him, my Savior and my God.


Psalm 42:5-6

33 comments:

Clementsville: Population of 4! said...

praying for you sweet Katie!! Definitely save the pieces!!!

Brooke said...

I think about you a lot and your loss. Praying for you! You are a wonderful mother! :)

Poirier Family said...

My heart goes out to you! I know you will be fine in time. Your one of the strongest women I have ever see. Save the pieces and it can be made into something beautiful. <3

Heather L. said...

Oh Katie, I can so relate to this post. I have spent the last year feeling torn into pieces, but I know that slowly, over time, those pieces will be put back together, but in a different way. I am a changed person, but I know that God loves me the way I am.

Definitely save the pieces. You are in my prayers today and always.

Mindy said...

You are in my prayers, sweet friend.

Arielle said...

I love that verse. Definitely in my prayers tonight!

Melanie Mueller said...

Sending prayers up for you!!

Maria said...

So true! It's great to know God can "make neat things out of special broken things." There have been times I never thought I'd laugh or smile again but God is a powerful healer and we are never forsaken. Thanks for the sweet reminder! Can't wait to see our littles again one day :)

Rebekah said...

Oh Katie, I am so sorry. I love how the Lord always makes himself so clear in times like those. What a beautiful picture He painted for you! Save those pieces. Thankfully, He helps us save the pieces when we feel like our life is in a million! I will be praying.

Megan said...

(((Hugs))) Katie, I am so sorry!!! I agree with saving the pieces!

Bethany @ 3SonsPlus1...and... said...

I don't think I have ever commented before, but I've been reading for a while. This is a beautiful post, Katie! And so true! We all have those broken, empty places in our hearts, places our loving Father WILL heal and make whole. Praying for you right now. =)

Hillary said...

Oh goodness Katie, my heart just sank for you hearing what happened. We haven't had that happen yet in my house but I'm sure we will. You are so right! Take a deep breath and turn towards God and let him fix the pieces for you!

Lots of love and prayers for you wonderful friend! xoxox

Livi said...

This post reminds me of the song written by Bill and Gloria Gaither, " Something Beautiful." ..."All I had to offer Him, was brokenness inside, but He made something beautiful of my life." YouTube it. Praying for you.

Bridgit said...

You know I think of you and your family often ...and yet we've never met...I think at times like this ...God and Reese are reaching out to you ...they don't want you sad they want you to rejoice and know you will be with them both one day ...save the pieces ...perfect words indeed!

Wendy said...

Oh, you poor thing. I am so sorry that Reese's special toy got broken. I am sure that was devastating. I hope you can make something beautiful out of the pieces. Maybe Colson just wanted a little part of Reese too.

Amanda said...

Oh Katie, we are trying to pick up the pieces every day. I am so sorry that you lost something that was special to you. I do believe that we are a work in progress and He is putting us back together. We will never be the same, but maybe stronger.

Blessings,
Amanda
Forever missing Gavin 4/7-5/3/08

The Mommy said...

Praying for your heart.

Melissa Abby said...

Wow, what a way to look at it. Such a good reminder, thank you for your words!

m&msmommy said...

Praying for you!!!! What a thought provoking post. I think all needed that right now, even if it applies to each of us a in different context.

Thank you for your sharing your heart!

Sugar said...

This is a beautiful post, just like you. I love the faithfulness you share as a Christian. It's amazing how God takes your pain and gives you the strength and grace to turn it into inspiring words for the rest of us.

Madison's Mommy said...

I stand in awe of your amazing heart and sweet spirit. You are on my heart today and always. Keep them....you will find the right way to put them back together.

XOXO

autumn23 said...

You are so strong and faithful even in the worst of times. Very inspirational! :)

Maryellen said...

beautiful . . .

It's a Crazy Life said...

What a beautiful post! Thank you so much for sharing. Keep clinging to your heavenly Father!

Brandy said...

What a powerful post! Maybe this can put things in another prospective for you Katie..."REESE'S PIECES" <3

Brandi said...

Aw, I'm sorry sweet friend!!!! Praying for you!!!!!!!!!!

Taylor said...

I love your heart, Katie! Such an amazing mama to your 3 precious children. Praying for you, friend!!

Lauren said...

Loved this and love you friend!!!

The Rohman Family said...

Oh, I'm heartbroken for you. I can only imagine how special certain things are for you. Praying God finds a special way for you to use those pieces you've saved.

Deciduous Heather said...

Thank you. Your words spoke to me. I am so sorry this happened. Save the pieces....I just love that. Praying for you guys always.
<3
Heather

Summer said...

My sweet Katie,
this could be a reminder from sweet Reese. She knows you are the best mommy ever to her and Z and C and she was letting you know that even though she is the missing piece to you're puzzle she will never be forgotten. She will always be missed and you will always make sure she is remembered. I like that your friend said maybe C wanted a piece of Reese. I like that. We all have a piece of her in our hearts. We all carry around a piece of Reese. So those pieces that are broken...don't think of it that way...think of it as a puzzle that you are putting back together. Maybe not the way you would have hoped it to be but the way it is now. Reese is still a big part of that puzzle just in a different way now! So save those pieces just like you save her in you're heart and smile when you see them..don't look at them as they are broken but look at them as it's the new puzzle that is being created and that she will always be a part of it! I know she has forever changed me!

love
Sums

MyFairLadies said...

This is beautiful, Katie. Thanks for sharing out of your brokenness. God restores!

Karen said...

I'm sorry to read that you lost something so special. Thinking of you,
Karen

 
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