I have so much I have always wanted to share with you about how Reese has touched my life but I have just never had the opportunity or I just can't find the words.
Today was my daughter's 2nd birthday and every milestone we hit with her makes me think of you.
From the day Reese was born I have been so deeply touched. Besides the fact that my heart aches for you because I know you personally, I think your pain has been more real to me because of my daughter. I know that I really could never begin to understand the road you have walked, but I do feel like I have carried a tiny little part of your burden in prayer. Because of Reese the Lord has shown me what it means to be a prayer warrior. To truly have a heart for someone. To see past myself. To not take life and HIS blessings for granted. He has stirred me, for the good!
I can't tell you how many days (and nights) I sat and held my daughter and cried out to God on your behalf. I have prayed so many prayers as I have put in hair bows or while I folded little girl laundry. I thought of you and prayed as I drove around Waco and Baylor's campus. I have had many conversations asking "why, God, why?" with very few answers. Probably will not have them this side of Heaven.
My heart still aches for you. I watch my daughter and I think of Reese. I think that they could have been playmates. I think that you should have a little girl running around just slightly younger than she is. I think you should be picking out a pink Easter dress and you should be planning girly birthday parties. I think of you when I rock my two year old to sleep at night and I think that you should be rocking Reese. I know your pain is so much deeper than all of those things, but I think that God uses them to open my eyes.
So, I do not know why the Lord wanted me to sit down and write this tonight. But I hope you know that you are covered in prayer.
Now this is what the LORD says- the One who created you, Jacob, and the One who formed you, Israel- "Do not fear, for I have redeemed you; I have called you by your name; you are Mine."
GOD is good, and I'm saved by His amazing grace. He has blessed me with a wonderful husband, two precious boys, and a beautiful daughter who is in Heaven. I have an amazing family and fabulous friends. Enjoy these little snapshots of our family's life!