Sunday, May 16, 2010

Special Logo

A woman in Belgium emailed me this picture...

It's an insurance company advertisement. She also said Colson is mostly known as a last name there. I love this! GOD uses his children in amazing ways to bless each other.


My Dad came up this weekend for a little visit. I found Z and him in the closet playing with a few toys. ; )

For the past two days Z has been much better. I say a lot of short and sweet prayers to the Lord like, "Help!" many days. ; ) I was really beginning to wonder where my happy boy went. GOD teaches me more through Zach than I think I teach him!


I'm starting to get butterflies in my stomach when I think about Colson getting here. I'm nervous, scared, excited, worried, all over the place. I try to think of what it will be like the moment he arrives, what Jason and I will do, but it's hard to even imagine. The more I feel him move inside me, the bigger I grow, the closer July gets...the more real everything becomes.

After Reese went to Heaven I wanted nothing more than to be close my daughter, but at the same time I would have given anything to snap my fingers and be done with all the "firsts" I knew this year would bring.

When we found out I was pregnant again, I remember thinking, "I wonder what GOD wants us to learn this year. What He has for us that we wouldn't be able to receive if Reese had lived longer than two days." I still don't know the answers, but I know GOD is sovereign.

I cannot believe it's already May. Reese has been with Jesus for nine months, and Colson will be here in nine weeks. How I wish I could have both Reese AND Colson. Thank you for choosing to be a part our journey of heartache and joy. We're extremely blessed by you.


May the Lord be praised! Day after day He bears our burdens...
Psalm 68:19

14 comments:

Fabiola said...

I've been praying for you and Colson!!!
We are on the decision process of getting pregnant again. But I am honest, I am not ready yet.

I really admire you for you courage, straight and faith.

God bless you!!!

Becky said...

I think your meeting with Colson will be bitter-sweet, but mostly sweet. He will be his own special person just like Reese! Your butterflies are understandable. So understandable.

Jill said...

Only 9 weeks left!? Time is flying by. Stopping to pray for you right now.

Kelley said...

That verse reminds me of one I've been meditating on lately out of Psalm 113. I think I'm going to re-do the nursery and paint it big across the wall.

Butterflies I understand. I get them everytime - but for me they last all 9 months. In fact, I think I got more this time just thinking about getting pregnant again. God has taught me so much about Him through you and your story. May He continue to bless you richly for sharing your journey.

Love you so much, and as always, praying for you. ~ Kelley

Lyndsey Newton said...

You are and your family are so precious. Your feelings are completely understandable--and your faith a lesson to many--especially me, a complete stranger from Texas. :)

Anonymous said...

Katie,

Little Colson will be here before you know it! I love his name!

Thinking of you as your due date approaches~

Dawn

Jen said...

I have followed you for a while, but do not usually comment. I just wanted you to know that you're in my prayers. I lost my twin baby girls Emily Faith and Erika Hope unexpectedly when I was in my 7th month. That was almost 10 years ago. You always miss them, but the blessing of other children and your faith in God will sustain you. Praying for you all as you wait for little Colson to arrive.

Mary said...

Katie, you are the one who blesses us!! Thanks for always sharing your heart!

Amanda said...

Katie, I have been thinking about your due date getting closer b/c you know our little Princess was born last July. When someone ask me what it was like, I said it was bittersweet. When I heard her little cry though it was the most wonderful sound in the world! I agree I think every emotion possible can hit you all at once sometimes - just like you mentioned in your post - nervous, scared, excited, worried but when you hear little Colsons cry it will be like no other!! July will be here before you know it!

Lauren said...

Love Colson’s name in that picture and WOW, he’s going to be here so soon!!!!!! Can’t wait to see his sweet face!! :)

Madison Sanders said...

I love that someone sent that to you.

I know he will be a beautiful baby! When you feel anxious about things, remember Philippians 4:6-7.

Linds said...

Praying for you! God is bigger than our worries, and He will bring peace when it least seems possible. Praying for that peace for you!

Gwen T said...

This morning I was writing in some congratulations cards to 2 couples who are getting married this month - I wrote Psalm 118:23 for them "This is the Lord's doing - it is marvelous in our eyes."

That verse came to mind as I was reading your post -- I'm so thankful you're seeing how God is working in you right now like the verse says. I pray that your eyes will stay focused on Him.

Donna said...

Thinking of and praying for you, Katie. You are truly an amazing woman.

 
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