Yesterday I received one of the most beautiful prints I've ever seen. It's called "Mine for a Moment." Kelley, what a precious gift. I continue to be amazed how GOD brought you into my life in His perfect timing. Thank you for continuing to pour Jesus into me.
My first thought when I saw this was, "It's Reese." This little girl has dark skin, dark straight hair, and brown eyes. She's perfect. It's her.
The artist Kelly O'Neill shares the story behind "Mine for a Moment." After losing a close friend, she "was struggling to balance loving fiercely with a willingness to let go." GOD showed her this picture in her mind, and she painted it. "...a little girl was playing in the field with her father. He had just let go of her hand, and she was running away, but smiling back at him. I knew that this image represented the attitude I was to have about the people I treasure most in my life."
She speaks of the fear of losing her husband "knowing that his life is not in my hands, but in the hands of his Creator, who has seen each of his days before even one of them began."
This picture reminds me that GOD loves me. He loves me with my broken heart who will never see what her little girl would have looked like. He knows I'll never again put headbands or bows in Reese's hair or dress her in pink dresses. He knows we'll never hear her say "Mama" or "Dada" the way Zach does all the time. I miss these things. I miss Reese.
I love to imagine what Reese would have looked like, but it also makes me so mad that we won't be able to see how beautiful she would have been as a little girl, a teenager, and a woman. This was not GOD's plan for us. I know this in my heart, but it seems impossible to grasp.
My Abba Father will never let us go. He sees my hurt and confusion. He sees every tear I cry. He knows every sigh of the "what ifs" I'll always wonder and never know. Jason and I have a perfect daughter in Heaven who is waiting for us.
How wrong Reese's death is in my earthly eyes. How Christ longs for me to have His eternal eyes. Jesus, You're mine. My shattered heart is Yours.
He will wipe away every tear from their eyes. Death will exist no longer; grief, crying, and pain will exist no longer, because the previous things have passed away.