Friday, April 9, 2010

Spring Flowers

Reese's new flowers

So girly and sweet like her. I still want to work on them a bit though...
A few blooming trees in the memorial gardens


Despite the beauty of these flowers, my heart is heavy today. I'm just wondering why buying our daughter new flowers each season is a part of my life now (of course I want to do this for her...and me). Although my tears flow, I am certain one day in Heaven with Reese I won't even know what crying is. I'm ready!


The sound of weeping and crying will no longer be heard in her.

Isaiah 65:19

31 comments:

Thomas and Jamie said...

It's JUST NOT FAIR. It's just not. I'm so sorry for your pain and your hurting. The flowers are beautiful, but can you imagine the beauty that Reese sees right now? I know that doesn't help your empty arms any, but I pray it will help to at least fill them a little! She's walking on streets of gold beside a beautiful, crystal clear sea with our Savior! I pray that you continue to heal and that the Lord will continue to give you His peace!

Launa said...

Oh hon, prayers for you today! That you might find peace and that your heart will become lighter!

Ashley Bray said...

The flowers are beautiful. Sending you hugs and prayers from one grieving mother to another.

Devon said...

rough day here too. holding on to the hope of heaven and like you, i'm ready too!

((hugs)) to you.

Nicole Bolinger said...

They are so beautiful and sweet...absolutely perfect! I feel so silly that you did this today and dealt with such emotions and when I saw you today we talked about such trivial things! Which I know is good too, but still... You are in my thoughts and prayers! :)

Kelley said...

My heart has been heavy for you for days and the tears come at the smallest thing - finding time to write you is way over due. The flowers are beautiful. With love, and as always, praying ~ Kelley

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jessica said...

I just saw them in person this afternoon. They are beautiful!

belle said...

i'm ready too......

Design Apprentice said...

The flowers are absolutely gorgeous, I'm sure Reese is smiling from heaven at the beautiful gesture from her Mom. This just tells of how giving you are as a mother. Truly, whenever I read your blog I hope that I one day can be half the Mom you are to your children.

Unknown said...

Oh Katie, the flowers are beautiful just like Reese. I try and remind myself when talking to Ryan that he doesn't understand tears or sadness he's in the best place possible, in the comforting arms of his God. I'm the one that's sad and as long as my little guy isn't, I'm content with that for now. You are in my heart today and pray for more sunshine days to head your way!
Hugs!

Jessica B.

Summer said...

Katie,
I love the flowers! So pretty, pink and girly! Just precious and delicate just like sweet Reese! Are those Cherry blossoms? They will stay beautiful always just like Reese!!

I am so sorry you have to go through this! I cried when I read this post! You have a place in my heart and have had it since I first read your story! I am glad we are friends and have "met" through blogland although I wish it was on better circumstances!

I have had a crummy couple of days to with my disease stuff! I read a quote the other day "Be kinder than necessary because everyone you meet is fighting some kind of battle" I just wish everyone would be so kind and nice and sweet and understand your situation and my disease situation if that makes sense!

Hang in there sweet friend! Extra prayers today and a BIG VIRTUAL HUG coming at ya! If I lived closer I would so come with ya to the memorial gardens and we could let Kelcee and Z feed the duckies although they tend to chase me LOL....
Oh and then we could do retail therapy at Target my treat :0)

xoxo
Summer :0)

Angie said...

Those flowers are perfect. So eloquent and sweet, just like Reese. I am sorry you are having a hard day. What a joyous day it will be when you see her again in heaven.

thinking and praying for you!

Love Ang

Sara said...

Saying a prayer for you right now. The flowers are beautiful just like Reese!

Hope you have a great weekend.

Tristan said...

they are beautiful.

and..it shouldn't be that way...it breaks my heart for you :(

praying for you.

Southern Shop Girls said...

They're beautiful

Tales from the Trails said...

I have been following your blog through the hurt, joys, and sorrows. I admire you. The beautiful flowers are just the icing on the cake to let you know that beautiful Reese is looking down on you and your family from our eternal home.

May God Continue to Bless You.

Lauren said...

Just beautiful, Katie.. Just beautiful!!!

Kelli said...

I am weeping with you and praying for your wounded heart!!

Beth Priest said...

I accidentally like combined three post in one comment and then left it in the last post but here it is!

my heart is heavy for you missing reese and not understanding why you have to put flowers up every season. sooo heavy and I am so sorry. I will pray for God to give you and me both understanding. I often have to just fall back on what I know is true and that is that God really is good and He really knows what's best for his children

I think that is so crazy about the two patients names right there together! and I am very impressed that he took pics.

can't wait for colson! Loved the bedding if I didn't comment on the last post, I was going to but then sometimes I get side tracked. Or maybe I did and it is in those moments where I forget I KNOW my brain shrunk during my pregnancies.

Dawnette Thomas said...

I love that her flowers are dainty, delicate, and beautiful just like Reese.

I'm sorry for your pain and heavy heart. I pray God will hold you firm in His grasp and give you His shoulder to weep on.

Leanne said...

I pray for you daily, friend.

Remember that Jesus Himself intercedes for you! Remember that He knows each sigh, each thought and each longing and one day, they will all be fulfilled in Him.

I will continue to pray for your comfort....for Colson....for peace and for joy!

life with my sweeties said...

I am so sorry today was hard for you. I loved the flowers, so sweet. Praying God wraps his arms around you on these hard days, so you know he is there holding onto to you!!

Paige said...

Katie the arrangment is so perfect! Sweet, pink and springy! You have been in my prayers. The flowers are so important because it's the only thing we can do for our baby girls. I visited and changed out the flowers at least once a month until Callyn was born- especially when she was newborn I just couldn't find the time or energy to go and it makes me feel so guilty. And ditto on Heaven! I so know that God has a plan for me here on earth, but when my time comes, I will be sprinting to the gates to hold my baby girl!

Robyn Beele said...

The flowers are beautiful! I pray that you make it through all the hard times!

Rachelle H said...

Ps. 34:17-19 "The Lord hears his people when they call to Him for help. He rescues them from all their troubles. The Lord is close to the brokenhearted; he rescues those who are crushed in spirit. The righteous face many troubles, but the Lord rescues them from each and every one."

Ps. 36:5-7 "Your unfailing love O Lord is as vast as the heavens; Your faithfulness reaches beyond the clouds. Your righteousness is like the mighty mountains, Your justice like the ocean depths. You care for people and animals alike, O Lord. How precious is your unfailing love, O God! All humanity finds shelter in the shadow of your wings."

Giggles said...

The flowers are beautiful. I do the same thing for my sweet boy and now I will be doing the same for my Mom. It is a hard thing to do but it makes me smile when I go to the cemetary and see the beautiful flowers.

Fabiola said...

The flowers are gorgeous!! I am always thinking and praying for you!!!

hi-d said...

Beautiful flowers...I am so sorry, Katie...praying for you.

Lindsay said...

The flowers and trees really are amazing and so beautiful. I know you want her here with you, but God has bigger plans and we don't always understand or even think that they are fair. I am always praying and thinking of you. My Aunt lost her sweet Allison when she was 2 days old, her heart was not fully developed. It has been years now, but she said what gets her from week to week is that she will be with her for all of eternity. What an amazing promise! She had some recycled paper with wild flower seeds inside that she wrote Allison a letter on and then planted it in her flower bed.
Prayers for continual healing and peace for you always!!!

Sarah said...

Sending you some virtual hugs today!

 
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