And prayed to God today,
I asked, "What makes a Mother?"
And I know I heard Him say:
A Mother has a baby,
This we know is true -
But, God, can you be a mother
When your baby's not with you?
Yes, you can, He replied
With confidence in His voice,
I give many women babies,
When they leave it is not their choice.
Some I send for a lifetime,
And others for the day,
And some I send to feel your womb,
But there's no need to stay.
I just don't understand this God,
I want my baby here.
He took a breath,
and cleared His throat,
And then I saw a tear.
I wish I could show you,
What Reese is doing here...
If you could see her smile
With other children and say,
"We go to earth to learn our lessons
of love and life and fear,
but my Mommy loved me so much
I got to come straight here!"
I feel so lucky to have a Mom who had so much love for me,
I learned my lessons very quickly,
My Mommy set me free.
I miss my Mommy oh so much
But I visit her each day.
When she goes to sleep,
On her pillow is where I lay.
I stroke her hair and kiss her cheek,
And whisper in her ear,
"Mommy, Please don't be sad today,
I'm your baby and I am here"
So you see my dear sweet one,
Your children are okay.
Your babies are here in My home,
And this is where they'll stay.
They'll wait for you with Me,
Until your lessons there are through,
And on the day that you come home,
they'll be at the gates waiting for you
So now you see
What makes a Mother,
It's the feeling in your heart,
It's the love you had so much of
Right from the very start.
Usually the pictures I share of Reese are the professionals ones, but I love the more "raw" moments just as much.
This was the first time I held Reese very early in the morning after she was born. I was in awe and couldn't believe they let me hold her.
Another one of my favorites. I love her little arm on her chest. ; )
Reese was with us on earth five months ago at this time. Thank you, LORD, for giving us those 50 hours with our daughter. What a gift!
Great is the LORD and most worthy of praise;
His greatness no one can fathom.
Psalm 145:3
She was such a beautiful baby.
ReplyDeleteI was listening to the radio last night and Steven Curtis Chapman's "Heaven Is The Face" came on. I thought of you and said a little prayer right there in my car. I hope today has been a good day for you.
((hugs))
Katie - that was an absolutely beautiful poem and I LOVE to think of Reese playing with my baby today. Thank you for that and for blogging SO freely and boldly!
ReplyDeleteHebrews 4:16 Let us therefore come boldly unto the throne of grace, that we may obtain mercy, and find grace to help in time of need.
She is so pretty!!! It's amazing how angelic she looks in those photos!
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ReplyDeleteWhat a beautiful poem....I am crying right now after reading it!
ReplyDeleteI love the "raw" pictures just as much as the professional ones too. It takes me back to those precious moments...I know Reese and Jillian are little friends in Heaven!
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ReplyDeleteSuch beautiful pictures. God is good, even when we don't understand; He is good.
ReplyDeleteShe was such a darling girl and this is a beautiful poem.
ReplyDeleteNo parent should have to say good bye to their children, but your Faith and Trust in God are truly amazing to behold.
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ReplyDeleteKatie...she is so beautiful and I love that poem. You are such an amazing mommy to Reese and Zach!
ReplyDeleteReese was a wonderful baby.
ReplyDeleteThank you for sharing such private moments with us.
And thank you for sharing your unbreakable faith.
I love this poem! It brought tears to my eyes. She is/was so beautiful Katie. *HUGS*
ReplyDeletelove the beautiful photos of reese! I can only imagine how much your arms ache to hold her again... praying for you today!
ReplyDeleteBeautiful poem. Do you know who the author is? Thank you for sharing your pictures.
ReplyDeleteI love the poem, Katie. Thank you for sharing it here with us...and thank you for continuing to share pictures of sweet Reese. I love seeing them...your daughter is so beautiful. (((HUGS))) to you today and continued prayers from us here in NC to you and your precious family. <3
ReplyDeleteYou are so brave to be going through this, I am a mom to two boys and my heart just aches for you that Reese is not enjoy each moment with you. Watching your son Zach spill the q-tips all over the floor but like your post read she is there with you each moment. I am so glad that you use your blog to post your thoughts and pictures of your life and sweet Reese. She is so blessed to have you as a mommy and so is little Z. I continue to look forward to seeing him grow up and the adventures he will take you on. Thanks for always sharing. God Bless
ReplyDeleteHi Katie. So sweet:) Thinking of you and of Reese today. Love you!
ReplyDeleteShe is so beautiful, Katie! Precious!
ReplyDeleteAnd what a beautiful poem. I know that was an encouragement to your mommy heart.
Still praying for you....
Blessings!
Katie,
ReplyDeleteShe is SO beautiful. I just love looking at her sweet face. And that poem is so special. It brings tears to my eyes. For I believe that Reese is looking down...so proud of her mom. Proud of your strength, proud of your perseverence, and proud of your relationship with our Lord. I pray for your strength and your heart. Loving you always.
what a sweet girl. such a beautiful poem - just reminds me how much the Lord loves and lavishes on us.
ReplyDeletei love joni eareckson tada's quote about animals going to heaven: http://mackenzielorene1.blogspot.com/2010/01/excessive-extravagent-superfluous-grace.html
how much more does he love on us by giving us children...even if just for a moment.
love you. hang in there. soon enough, you get to be with reese forever and ever and ever and ever.... :)
Zack needs you.
ReplyDeletehey sweet friend (that i don't even know..ha!)
ReplyDeletelook at this sweet font i found! :)
http://kevinandamanda.com/fonts/fontsforpeas/pea-reese/
Kate, you don't know me, but I've been praying for you and your family for months. There's not a day that goes by that I don't think of you and admire your grace and beauty. Reese is truly shining through her beautiful mother. You are such an inspiration to others and you are helping so many people with your strength and courage.
ReplyDeleteShe is beautiful and that is a beautiful poem!
ReplyDeletemy heart aches for you...I couldn't even imagine.
ReplyDeletePraying for you as always!
She is just so beautiful!
You are so full of grace--your strength and faith amaze me as I sit here in tears from those words. I continue to pray that everday brings you comfort and peace even if just for a moment.
ReplyDeleteWhat a beautiful poem Katie....It made me cry! I love those pics of Reese! She is beautiful and you are a Great MOMMY....
ReplyDeleteAlways in my prayers
Summer :0)
What a beautiful poem! Your Reese is adorable! Thanks for sharing your heart with us! Hugs!!!
ReplyDeleteOh, Katie. She is just so beautiful and perfect.
ReplyDeleteSuch an angel.
I am still praying for you. I love that picture you posted the other day that someone sent you. So precious.
Ashley
Beautiful poem ...Beautiful Reese ...thank you for allowing us into your life Katie!God Bless!
ReplyDeleteKatie~what a beautiful poem~and a beautiful little lady! I love thinking about Heaven and about all the sweet children waiting for their loved ones...Thank you for sharing your life and your faith so openly!
ReplyDeleteHope that today is a great day for you. I'm praying for you!
She is seriously the most beautiful thing EVER!!! :)
ReplyDeleteThat was such a beautiful poem, I am wiping away the tears now as I type. I can't even begin to imagine the pain of losing a child Katie but I contine to pray for you and your family. Reese is absolutely beautiful, Thanks for sharing such sweet pictures of your precious time with your baby girl.
ReplyDeleteBeautiful!
ReplyDeleteBeautiful words of encouragement. Reese is with you. Smile today! God is good.
ReplyDeleteI've followed your blog for awhile and shed many tears reading about your journey. Reese is such a beautiful baby and your family is just gorgeous. I felt I needed to comment today, b/c that poem is so beautiful and just brought me to tears. What a gift.
ReplyDeleteI love those pics of her. She looks like Z to me. I can't imagine still what you are going thru/have gone thru/will continue thru. Thankfully, you know God has a plan and I'm glad that you have hope in HIM thru it all!
ReplyDeleteThat poem brought me to tears...the part that read: "I miss my Mommy oh so much But I visit her each day. When she goes to sleep, On her pillow is where I lay. I stroke her hair and kiss her cheek, And whisper in her ear, 'Mommy, Please don't be sad today, I'm your baby and I am here'"...
ReplyDeleteYou are in my thoughts and prayers!
I am still in Aw of you... I said it once before and will say it again.
ReplyDeleteYour Grace and Faith is amazing.
Blessing sweet girl.
Ohh goodness, what beauty! I know you miss her dearly. I hope it is getting just a bit lighter on your sweet heart.
ReplyDeleteKatie
ReplyDeletethe pictures are beautiful as is the poem. Reese is such a special gift.
I hope that it's okay (i'd email you if I had your email instead of asking here) but what kind of infection was it again? My school's secretary (awesome lady whom i'm close to) first grandbaby was born at 32 weeks on Thursday because of an infection (CMV, I think) that the baby caught in utero. She was transported to Children's today to see what kind of functions were working. But having followed your journey with Reese when I found out the news today about Katelynn I immediately thought of you and of Reese and cried...after I left the office of course. I prayed heavily for Reese, you and Katelynn today. Anyhow..thinking of you.
Reese's sweetness is portrayed so beautifully in these pictures! What a treasure and comfort these must be to you! The poem is simply lovely!
ReplyDeleteI love that! Thanks for sharing. The pictures are beautiful :)
ReplyDeletehow precious... i am overwhelmed by the poem. if you get a chance, go to youtube and listen to "amy's song" by jonathan david helzer . it has mended my heart in such an amazing way.
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