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You know you've lost a baby when you pray you will be able to bring your next one home from the hospital. Few women know the pain of coming home empty-handed to a closet filled with newborn baby clothes ready to be worn, a baby book waiting to be filled in with all the "firsts," and a diaper bag filled with all the essentials that will not be used.

Thoughts like this probably never cross the mind of a mom who has never lost a baby and is pregnant. Why should they? They are against everything we feel in our hearts as moms. It's against everything normal. I never had thoughts like these before Reese was born.

My heart now is filled with so many desires and prayers. That next time I'll be able to walk out (or be wheeled out) of those hospital doors with a baby in my arms. Our third baby. GOD's baby. Wow. What a day! It gives me butterflies in my stomach and chills all over just thinking about this.

I also think about the moment the nurse places our next son or daughter in my arms. I remember with Zach and Reese. Now I look forward to this day with as much anticipation as I did our wedding day. I just don't think I'll ever let go. ; )

My mind continues to wonder about the main events of this day. Our third child's birthday. I think about when Jason and I will first hear his or her little (or hopefully loud) cry. Reese never made a sound, but what a shout her life made and continues to be.

I want this day to be filled with joy and praise, not worry or fear. Tears of happiness and not of despair. A day and a baby covered with prayer.

Only GOD knows the exact day, the hour, the minute, (and everything that may happen) but we are thrilled to announce our next baby should arrive in July.

WE ARE GOING TO HAVE ANOTHER BABY!!!!!

July 28th is my due date. One month before Reese's due date last year August 28th.

Is GOD good or what!?

Thank you thank you thank you, Jesus, for this gift of life. Laughter. Redemption.

Are you jumping up and down, crying tears of joy, and praising the LORD yet!?

I am. ; )

We're also holding our breath and clinging to hope. Here we go...

Be at rest once more, O my soul,
for the LORD has been good to you.

Psalm 116:7